51 days to go!!

I woke up at 5:30 this morning and was ready to go.  The excitement I felt for my run was exciting.  Have you ever been happy that you experienced a certain emotion due to certain circumstances?  Well, anyway, I was ready to get going by 6.  I was a bit pokey getting, but that was not indicative of my run.

I started running by turning left out of my driveway.  Turning left to begin my run is always the hardest way to start.  By starting out that way, I begin my run straight up a hill.  But it felt good and strong.  As I crested the hill, I saw the beautiful reminisce of a sun that just rose.  The sky was mostly blue with streaks of orange.  I silently thanked myself for getting out of bed.  I continued and ran past the new bridge they just put in.  I altered my running route but got a total of 5.32 miles in, which I had planned to do.  Mile four was my fastest with an 11:59 mpm pace.  I'm getting faster and stronger.  The improvements I have made the past week really please me.  I have run 26.09 miles over the last 6 days.  I am totally shocked at how sore I am NOT.  I really thought I would be hurting now.  I do have some stiffness, but nothing like I was expecting when I started this.

This upcoming weekend I will do my long runs.  I believe Saturday I will do some trail and Sunday I will just do roads.  I do need to practice trail running.  I am clumsy, and timid on trail.  I believe practice will make me better.

I have already experienced a lot of changes, especially mentally, since I have found my way back to running.  I feel more like me.  I feel happy and proud of myself.  I feel like I'm a better mother and wife.  I feel like I found my way back to who I truly am.  The second, unexpected change, is the overwhelming apathy I feel for my career.  I just don't care.  Yeah, I'm still stressed, but not like I used to be.  I still don't like my job.  I still don't see myself staying there for the long term.  But I just don't care.  I feel like the whole thing is just utterly pointless.  While I have always felt this way, it was always with a lot of anxiety and stress.  Now I just feel like this is dumb.  I feel apathetic.  I don't care.  Like whatever happens with this job, I don't care.  I think this is a change in the right direction.

My adventure continues!!!!