49 days to go, No Motivation Monday

When my alarm went off this morning, it felt like any other morning when my alarm is sounds at 5:30.  I was not ready to jump out of bed to say the least.  But that is always to be expected.  I drug myself from bed and out of our bedroom door.  Usually by the time I get out of our bedroom and into our hallway, I'm feeling okay about being awake, and I'm mentally prepared to run.  This was not my experience this morning.  I seriously thought about going back to bed at this point.  I decided that I wanted to keep in the grove of running, and I knew I just needed to get out and get moving, even if I didn't complete an epic run.

I ran, I ran slow, I ran short.  BUT I ran.  I ran 3 miles.  I think my body needed a relaxed run day.  I've been asking so much of it lately.  So I'm not exactly happy about my run, but I"m happier than if I would have had NO run.  

I have also come to three big conclusions about my running and other areas of my life:

1) Running is part of what makes me me.  This is probably the biggest conclusion.  I feel whole when running is part of my life.  I feel like a part of me that was missing is now found.  This is a beautiful feeling.  Quite frankly, I feel there is one more part missing and that part is yoga.  So I need to work on adding that to my life, but right now, the most important this is to celebrate bringing this wonderful part of me back into my life.

2) I need to drink more plain water.  I have been hydrating mostly through seltzer water.  There is some sort of replenishment that happens with flat water that does not happen with those bubbles.  Even the seltzer I make myself that is only well water and added CO2.  So, I don't know what it is, but that needs to change.

3) I need to lose weight.  This is not only a vanity thing, or even a performance thing.  This is a necessity so that I can run as much as I want and not worry about getting injured.  It is a lot to ask your body to perform at such a level with all of that extra weight.  There are also the added vanity and performance benefits.  I believe I"m going to count calories to achieve this.  When I lost all of my weight before, I did it by counting calories.  While I have read a lot about different ways of eating including restricting carbs, and intermittent fasting.  They make sense, and I'm sure they work, right now I have to go with what has worked with me.

So my adventure continues.