Recently, over the past year, I have lost approximately 50 pounds. I'm very proud of my self but over the past two weeks I have been struggling with my diet. I have gained about 5 pounds, and haven't had the joy and positive anticipation of my long runs. It could easily blamed on the holidays, but one day of bad eating does not equate to 2 weeks on continual weight gain. So clearly this is a problem that needs to be addressed before this 5 pounds inflates me back to the 50+ pounds I was at.
I have been freaking out, but Chris put things into perspective for me, as he usually does. I have also been doing a lot of thinking about my skydiving. I fell upon some of Brian Germain's videos on YouTube. He basically sums things up to say that what you focus on is what will happen. He taught skydiving, where the landing zone had one tree. He, of course, cautioned his students to avoid the tree. But since that's what they were thinking about NOT hitting the tree, a lot of times they hit it, because that's what their focus was. Essentially fear overtaking you. And then he presented some very yogic ideas. About living in the moment and not fearing the future and occurrences and situations we cannot control. This gave me a great deal of comfort.
As soon as I worry about gaining weight, I'm giving my power away to a boogey man. I am the one who controls whether I gain weight or not. I feel empowered. To be redundant, I got my power back. This is of great comfort, but also calls for a stretch of responsibility. They kind of go hand and hand, don't they?
So while I embrace the idea of being in control of my own destiny, I also think this will take a lot of work and time. (that I am willing to do)
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